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This is a long story cut short (im on my lunch break):
My younger sister and I have always been best friends. We shared a room together growing up and we RARELY fought (other than cleanliness of the room). She is three years younger than me, so I was a senior in high school while she was a freshman. In high school we would hang out, go to lunch/breakfast together, and share secrets with each other. Then I moved out for college and she was the only child left at home. We had planned on her mopving in with me when she graduated high school and she was so exited to do so.
Then two August's ago (2004) we moved in together in a nice two bedroom apartment. Things were great until that Christmas (2004) when she met Jake. Jake and I never got along-he dropped out of high school and is one of those annoying loud, RUDE, condescending, inaproppriate, and controling jerks that I despised all my life. Everyone thought that Jake was a phase for my sister-he still may be a phase for her. Ever since then my sister and I have not really gotten along-fighting constantly about Jake being over 24/7. So then my sister convinced Jake to get his GED and go to college, and so he did. Yet Jake is still a controlling ASSHOLE that everyone in my sister's life hates.
My sister has no friends of her own (her "new friends" are Jakes neighbors and childhood friends who ALSO dropped out of high school and have children out of wedlock and they are still in their teens!) and she is completely EMERSED in Jakeville. She spends holidays with him rather than her own family and she bends over backwards for him. Let me remind you she is 19, and so is he.
Well obviously Jake interferes with her life adversely yet she is still with him. What hurt me is that yesterday she chose to drop out of college and move up to Jake. At first I was THRILLED to have her leave b/c she has become SO irresponible, lazy, mean, and hard to live with b/c of Jake. I am tired of picking up her mess b/c Jake told her do something else. But this is so sudden that after the initial thrill I wondered why she wants to move to him rather than break-up with him (she even acklowdges what an ass he is).
So this morning I asked her why she is impulsively dropping class, and moving up to Jake and she responded with a list of whats wrong with me: I am too-uptight, restricted, not fun, worried about responsibility, like a "40 year old", and lame. This fucking HURT! Thanks, way to top it off! I already want to blow my head off with a blow torch but now she prefers to be with JAKE rather than me? He doesn't even shower and refuses to wear a condom during sex. Literally that is what an ass he is, he wont wear protection and she has had the morning after-pill twice already in a year.
I told her that is what growing up is-balancing school, work, and life and becoming independent and an adult. She just made a joke that I need to pull the stick out of my ass.
GOD I WANT TO FUCKING DIE!